Melancholy
Sunday, February 1, 2009 by Reyn
Here I go again. My incurable sickness bring me abashed thoughts. The result? An unexplainable feeling of sadness.
A lot of things have been bothering me lately. And for reasons I don't know why, it seems like I'd want to falter. I'd want to give up. I'd want to stop. But when I think of you, the dark clouds in my imagination suddenly are replaced with a clear, blue, sky. When I imagine my unlimited happiness when I'm with you, I feel like life has brought me so many reasons to live. I feel like an angel soaring in heaven. With these thoughts, I don't want to think again of all the bad things in my life. I don't want to think of my past nor my future. I want to think of now. I want to always think of you.
It's funny how I expect too much from you when I actually don't deserve to be given that much. Nasanay lang siguro. I have always been thankful though, that you came. That you put extra effort for accepting what I am. For understanding my shortcomings and difficulties. For letting me stay in your house, for giving me anything that in your little effort would please me. For all those times that I felt love, even though sometimes that love broke my heart into pieces.
Maybe someday I'll find a road that will lead me back home. Back to my old self. Back to the normal me. I don't say that I became ab-normal, well I guess all people do when they fall in love. Time is a very precious thing that was given to us. This time will help me. This time will bring back my happiness again, bringing me into a place where I don't wanna think again of all my dysphoria, erasing all the fleeting thoughts of sadness, the blues, the dumps, and the heavy heart.
A lot of things have been bothering me lately. And for reasons I don't know why, it seems like I'd want to falter. I'd want to give up. I'd want to stop. But when I think of you, the dark clouds in my imagination suddenly are replaced with a clear, blue, sky. When I imagine my unlimited happiness when I'm with you, I feel like life has brought me so many reasons to live. I feel like an angel soaring in heaven. With these thoughts, I don't want to think again of all the bad things in my life. I don't want to think of my past nor my future. I want to think of now. I want to always think of you.
It's funny how I expect too much from you when I actually don't deserve to be given that much. Nasanay lang siguro. I have always been thankful though, that you came. That you put extra effort for accepting what I am. For understanding my shortcomings and difficulties. For letting me stay in your house, for giving me anything that in your little effort would please me. For all those times that I felt love, even though sometimes that love broke my heart into pieces.
Maybe someday I'll find a road that will lead me back home. Back to my old self. Back to the normal me. I don't say that I became ab-normal, well I guess all people do when they fall in love. Time is a very precious thing that was given to us. This time will help me. This time will bring back my happiness again, bringing me into a place where I don't wanna think again of all my dysphoria, erasing all the fleeting thoughts of sadness, the blues, the dumps, and the heavy heart.
hey cheer up sir. ano ka ba don't let sadness dwell in you mwuah